I sure do love this little boy of mine! I feel so large lately! I feel like I don't have much room to even fit into our recliner. But, today Jaden crawled up on my lap and snuggled with me until we both fell asleep. I have to admit...I don't want this to change. He can be a handful, but he's my little buddy! We go everywhere together. He's my little friend. We spend so much time that the thought of having this new little one makes me a little sad. Not sad because I don't want another one, but sad because it means that my one on one time with Jaden will be different. I'm sure going to miss this. I don't like change and I'm nervous that this sweet little boy will feel like he's lost in the shuffle once baby number 4 arrives. I hope this isn't the case. But for now, I want to remember this feeling today. I love this little boy so much and feel so blessed to have had so much one on one time with him these past few years. I remember being pregnant with Jack and being worried that I wouldn't be able to love Jack as much as loved Corbin. I worried that my heart wouldn't be large enough to love them equally. I even BEGGED the Lord to let me love this new baby (Jack) as much as I loved Corbin. I couldn't understand, but as soon as Jack was born (maybe 4 days after) I grew so absolutely IN LOVE with Jack that I wondered how I could have ever lived without him. (In hind sight...I still don't know how I'm living without him) I love my boys! I love them all the same, and all completely different too.