This year for my birthday I only have one request. One wish. One desperate plea. Come back baby. I miss you so much.
My heart is aching to hold him tonight. Aching for just a glimpse of what he'd be like today. I feel like I can't breathe. I can't stop my tears tonight. I don't want to turn another year older without him here. I don't like that time just keeps trucking on and he's not here to truck along with us! I want to hear his laugh and pull his sweet toe head into my leg. How could he be gone twice as long as he was even here and my heart feel so hopeless and empty for him? I will never be over this and there is nothing I can do about it. So I guess I'll just keep moving forward. Never forgetting. Always longing. Longing for that sweet, beautiful boy that loved me so perfectly he'd have to be an angel. At least I got 16 months to love an angel on earth. I feel so blessed to have held him for 1 year, 4 months, and 3 1/2 days. Someday it will all be worth it....just not tonight.