I'm trying....I really am! But there is only so much I can take before the woman that woke up hoping to be Mary Poppins all day quickly turns into Cruella Deville! Today has been INSANE! I feel like I've been running around with my head cut off. Corb's been off track for the past 2 weeks. Jaden thinks HE should be "off track" as well. Getting him to preschool has been fun let me tell you! I took Corbin to the dentist today and was informed that he had 5 cavities! 5!!! Are you freaking kidding me??!!! It turns out that he only had 4...but don't worry...he had to do a small root canal on one of them! Good times! Can't wait for that bill!
Today we were supposed to head down to Lehi for the boys to be in a short commercial for Coby's work. It had already been a LONG day already and Cole wasn't particularly in the best of moods. I was debating cancelling. I didn't. Instead I went with the WORST attitude! It was like I was this big black rain cloud bringing GLOOM and DOOM everywhere I went! And it was hard NOT to be affected by it! After the boys made their debute, we had a little lunch, and I yelled at everyone all the way home to keep Cole awake, we finally made it home. I put Cole to bed and then had a little breakdown to my mom. I told her that I was just going to hop on the elliptical and try to get some good endorphins going to hopefully lighten my horrendous attitude.
No sooner had I got the older boys settled, put on my work out clothes, when I saw her white little camry pull up in my driveway. I watched her fiddling with something and then she stepped out holding a big chocolate candy bar and pretty pink roses. I was instantly HUMBLED.
She didn't need to do it. She definitely had every reason to get in her car and NEVER come back after the way I acted today. But she didn't. She looked for an opportunity to serve even someone as undeserving as ME! It changed my attitude and after I had a good cry and told her how sorry I was, I found the courage to appologize to everyone else I'd hurt that day. Thank goodness they are bigger than me forgive quickly and easily.
How grateful I am for my mom. She comes over sometimes daily to help me and spend the day with me. She's one of my best friends and I am so lucky to have been blessed with such an amazing mom! I love you Mom and hope that I can be half the mom you are to me!